You’ve won another argument
because I have given up
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I swore I wouldn’t fight back anymore
But I gave in this time
I engaged, I didn’t just let it go
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Until I came to my senses, that is
But it was too late
How do you stop a freight train that’s barreling down the tracks?
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You are unkind to me
Your words are bitter and seering
You have hurt our children
inside and out
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You prefer things to people
but you turn on your charm so no one will see through your facade
And facade it is
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It is not real
You are not real
But this is all painfully real
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You are selfish
manipulative
indignant
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Lies roll off your tongue
like raindrops off rooftops
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Yet you will outlive me
You will see our children grow
And hold their children in your arms
And you won’t care
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How could the universe have gotten it so wrong?
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cancer in my thirties 